just reach hm after pei mama go eat n shopping..hehe..feel so bad.. nw earn $ le still mst let her treat mi.. worst..she bought a bag for mi..haha..then we tok n tok n tok.. lyk years nv tok le.. bt then thinking back.. realli veri long nv tok to her lyk there's no tml le.. nwadays i cum hm she at work.. i slping she cum back. seldom c her lor.. if c also nv tok..haiz.. wad to do.. she nid to earn $ for us..sighz..observing her as we tok.. she seem to lost weight..veri thin and tired nw..haiz..heartache man..wo bu xiang de..bt then she want mi to study..
Ruilong msg mi suddenly.. amazing..guess coze he nth beta to do..then will think of mi de..
Rixian came dwn to find mi when i work..seeing him make mi feel a whole body of guilt..bt the hapi thing is that he still treat mi as a gd frend..y cant chuan just be lyk xian?y nt?!rixian found a gf le..so hapi for him..at least he cud 4get about mi and carry on his life.. :p
sian man.. tml gt tcs mock exam..still havent touch the bk..cant be bothered man..damn tired.. havent been slping for much these daes..so bz with work..3daes in a row clsing except todae..nx wk gt 4 shifts..mostly long hrs..gd is gd.. gt more $$..hope dun crash with mi other activites man..
wkend over in 3hrs..so fast..tml be a brand new wk.. a brand new start..wonder how to face leehuan tml...sighz..duno y i feel bad though is nth to do with mi..
veri long nv hapi hapi le..these daes realli feel dwn..cant realli smile from mi heart..bt how mani actualli noe i gt prob..i can always be there for mi frends when they nid a shoulder to cry.. bt when i nid a shoulder.. how mani can be there for mi?how mani?!bearly a hand haiz..mst i open mi mouth to sae i gt prob and then they feel that i gt prob??mst i?!fella n angela ask mi yesterdae during work if i m ok..seriously i m nt ok..bt i just duno how to bring miself to tell them that..in return i just told fella : i m ok.. i m just tired..haix..she's veri concerned about mi even when i reached hm and thats lyk 4am in the morning..realli appreciate her as a frend..if i could sense the oddness in mi frenx.. y cant they?perhaps they r just nt sensitive enuff..bt for those who have been frendx with mi for so long..they cud nt even do that.. i feel so disappointed..i just do..i told this gd frend of mine out of the blue: can c i gt prob? he sae: gt meh.. u seem alrite to mi.. ..Immediately i hear that tears were on mi eyes, bt i told miself to be strong coze there's ppl lyk angela n fella who noe how i feel..
issit i m too strong on the outside that ppl think that i wud nt be weak..i duuno man..i wud just sae though i m strong on the outside..actuali for the fact.. i am a soft hearted and emotional ger..who nid a shoulder to lie on as much as i could..haiz..i wonder how mani of such ppl r there in mi life??......