..tIrED..dIsApPOiNtEd..

Long dae for mi.just hm from work...haix..drama episode happening at hm..duno wad to do..duno wad to sae..kinda of uselss..haix..y is there something called the "mistress"?fark fark fark..it hurts mi when i c my mum cry..bt i realli duno wad to do..the shadow in mi since the incident when i was in P6 that i called my dad red handed with the BITCH had been 4eva lying in mi..i tried to push away..bt its hard..i didnt sae a word about the BITCH n my dad after my parents patch back..i noe mi mum has been veri hurt..bt becoze of mi n bro..she hang on..till todae..she is stilling hanging on..giving my dad chances after chances..bt is he grabbing hold of the chance??i doubt so..i realli do..BITCH r realli BITCH..fancy her to call my hse n hanging up alwasy if my dad wasnt the one who ans the cal..the clever mi take the chance n cal back the number to hear that BITCH voice..i didnt comment a single word..i just keep my cool..n sing my prayers..i dun wish the drama to react again..it's just so scary..i just be there at hm with mi mum as much as i can..bt isist of ani help??i doubt so again..haix..wild thots cross my mind as the clock tick pass a second everytime..What isist lyk to have a broken family??What isist lyk to live with the BITCH??.........haix..i duno..the cycle didnt stop eva since P6..i tink that all along mi dad has the BITCH outside..more of lyk ON/OFF thing..bt i heck bout that..i guess mi mum feels the same..bt she just remain silent n bear the pain by herself..nitex that she sob quietly in her bed and senses will eventualli tell mi to wake up..all that daes..is back these daes...haix...i m lost..i duno wad to do..shd i express myself nw??sighed...i feel lyk crying..i feel lyk saying out..bt i duno wads keeping mi back..i just dun understand..

~Never b a Bitch if u dun wan others to call u one..~