I just feel myself going dwn the rollercoaster todae..haix..so sad..over so mani things..adrain leaving SB-TM le..he leaving us to becum a manager at SB-ML..is lyk at the same time of feeling hapi for him.. we feel the lost in us too..after he's gone.. wads gona happen to SB-TM.??perhaps is that we rely on him too much.. n some only start to treasure him nw..Some may just sae that when the boat reaches the head of the bridge.. the bridge will automatically becum straight..i hav no comments.. bt onli noe that we gt to buck up nw..b4 all the efforts all the past partners had put in into the store will go dwn the drain..

I guess the most depressing things that hit mi was that he was gona kicked out of his JC.(duno if it's the confirmation issue a nt..i just pray that it's nt..).at the pt of time i just feel veri veri sad for him..is lyk so wasted...he's such an intelligent boi.. who tends to display his intelligence in the wrong area..i still ask myself is this punishment too harsh for him??i simply just pity him..or is this the punishment deliberately mend to be his apology to mi?or to those sins that he had done?
my mind was in a daze after the news was broke out to mi.. i realli do..i have to urge to msg him to tell him how much i care about him still?wad am i doing??can somemone pls tell mi!!?i thot i said i 4get about our past just nt long ago??y isist that i still cant get over his shadow in mi??the more i want to get over him, the more i missed him n wana c him..1year already!!!n i m still stuck at the original pt i was left a yr ago!!WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOD, WHY R U DOING THIS TO MI!!!I missed him.....~Whenver i c tat Bitch photo i wud just feel that jealousy in mi once again..i just cant ctrl that feeling..At this pt of time, i realli hope my closest frens will be with mi..bt where r u all??have u guys forgotten mi??u guys may appear to be there for mi.. bt r ur soul realli there??i realli feel lyk a lost soul lyk 1yr ago these daes..i starting to sob everynite in my bed alone just lyk 1 yr ago..i been crying for nites.. bt how mani of u realli noe??i search myself n ask myself..is all the effort i put in going dwn the waste?does the frendship means meaningless to u guys??does it weigh 0 in ur life??if it realli is..i just feel veri disappointed.. i realli do..bt wadever it is i will still there for u guys when u nid mi.. i just feel hurt..the wound left by him is deep enuff..pls do nt let it deepens..im afraid i cant take it ani longer..my throat infections is bad again..bt how much do u guys care? where r u guys the pillar of my life?where??where have u guys been???y isist that i can be alwasy there for u all when u all nid mi n i dun have?perhaps i shd nt ask anithing in return..bt i just god damn tired of the feeling..sometimes toking to u guys..just seem lyk toking to walls..n i realli mean it..u just wana noe more about her thr mi..fine..i accept that..bt over the times.. i just feel tired n worn out...i nid a break..i realli do..nt 1 bt practically most of the 5 of u all that i realli luv...R we nw acquitances or just frenxs??

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