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tired tired tired...after a LoOng dae that seems loOng...couldnt wait for the shop to cls so that i can finish clsing n get back hm to slp..almost died sia..if nt becoze of angela n ira help...all my pl on shift todae was sick..omg..it was so terrible..all half dead..n i just cant bear to let them do tings lor..so bo bian..have to do myself..=.="" wad to do..all sick wad..left mi so strong n fit..end up within 2hrs i m shagged to death..i m lyk shouting for help liao..ask that ainon ask for manpower help frm kiosk she dun wan...onli called angela dwn at 10.45pm..argh..dui ar!wadever lar..heng managed to swop with lynette tml if nt tml i go work sure zombie de lor..at least nw can manage to slp till 1pm..sianz..gona slp soon..damn tired..keep wanting to vomit..havent reali eaten todae except for a bagel..too tired n lazi to get food...

duno y i suddenly tink of that grp of crazi mates i have..so touched that they came dwn to find mi at work on new yr eve..just to wish mi a hapi new yr..veri long nv catch up with them le coze nv go trg..so glad to c them on a brand new yr..somemore is purposely cum find mi de lor..nv have been so hapi n touched..had my fill of luff man alwasy with them ard..they just brighten n lighten u up..they r alwasy full of shit n crap..hhahaa..thx owl,tianlong,leongwah,eeswee..miz u guys lots!u guys r the best man..aniway i b back in the pool on tues!!!!yipepe!!!cant wait to get into the boat n rock it out....!!!wEeE,,,,,

aniway i was disappointed to hear frm a frend that she is pregnant..bastard bf she gt..cb..nw she nid to go abortion her bf do wad sia?cant even spare her the $ as he in some debts..cb..cry n regret is all she cud nw..bt i just said..no pt regretting lor..wad done is done..all becoze of that moment of shuang-ness, go hav sex..then nw leh..scared parents find out la...scared underage sex lar..scared here n there..if scared then y in the first place nv scared tio baby?kns man..it just hurts mi n anger mi to c teenagers these daes so childish n rush in their tinking man..nv tink for their future when they have pre-martial sex lor..17 yrs old for the ger..19+ yrs old for that ITE guy...pls...that guy cant even support her nw lor..fark sia..no brain no backside man the 2 of them..nv tink n use their brain when wana sex de sia.....argh...dui dui dui`wadever lar..is her choice aniway..wad i cud do i alreadi did liao..found her the operation rate at Legal hospital..KKH 400++ bucks..dun nid parent consent even..gd rite??yah rite..abortion is nv gd for gers at young age..haiz~

missed my ger again...sianz..keep tinking of her words..i finali gt the courage to ask her if i shd gif up on her..she sae it's my choice..she cant help mi to decide..fark sia..wad's her meaning man..then she sae " u duno wad will happen in the future".. true lar..bt frm tis phrase it just gif mi the feeling that she is still uncertain if i realli have turn crook..wad to do...i all along str. de ma..no doubt she will doubt la..i realli duno wad the meaning of those words sia she said in the morning..giving mi hope or asking mi to gif up?bt if she wan mi to gif up on her..then y isist tat she is assuring mi that she has given up on her ex?onli at times will tink of her ex nia?wth man..cant she just gif mi a definite ans of a yes or no???making mi puzzle n confuse lyk anithing..wadever lar..........argh.........cant b bothered liao..duno y..i m veri dizzy nw...mst b that uncle peter lar..turn here n there rd singapore..cant decide his mind to turn left or right sia..nw have the attempt to vomit..i just hate motion sickness!!!

tata~

~U choose to open ur heart for somemone new in life,putting back the past in ur mind..fine then..i m learning wad u r teaching mi nw..i juz wana show that i m living happier than u..~