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13:06
In canteen now with my bunch of classmates doing on my PECON tut..whereas they r stuggling wiht the ENGDRAW which is lyk due-ing in 54 mins time..JunMing is helping me to touch up on my drawing..sick of it after a whole nite oh 2hrs in the battle man...eyes damn teary after the long stare at the small tiny 1mm cubes of the graph paper..he's such a nice person..w/o any hesitation he help mi when i ask for help..hehe..thx dude..k lar..u the best lor.. :)

My eyes wonder ard the canteen as usual..i just cant keep focus on sth 4 long..as usual lar..have short focus span..hee.. :p

Alot of things happen these daes n it just allow mi to tink deeper n more...
Everything happen 4 a reason and the reason occurs of one action or an environment factor..
We always compalin in life that 1 change...bt exactly how much do we noe the person..and the real +exact situation the person is in?? Why didnt 1 tink that it's actuali he/she that has changed and nt the person that they tink has changed change???Why issit that people tend to reflect about themself but instead put the problem on others?
Self-reflection is indeed impt at times when u quiet and slow the pace of life dwn..bt once again..how many actuali bothers to do it??

Why can relationshops changed human beings so drastically..may it b gd or bad..4 some it's an improvement to his/her character..bt 4 some..it's onli make on mroe selfish n cheap..make one more un-understanding to the pl ard them in one way or another..hurting the people ard them..y do these happen??
Issit coze they have put in too much into the relationship to the extend they r being insensitive to the pl ard them?
It just hurt mi to c frnds fall into the world of onli they n their partner..n nth else more..the words they mention at times r just so insensitive and hurting..
Maibe 1 of the main reason is that they have put in to much into the realtionshipt..true..who duns??
4some perhaps..haix..i understand the insecurity in them but nid it b to the extend that they r hurting the ppl ard them??

Some of u may b tinking..Joan..u've tink too much liao lar..u r being too emotional...
bt looks..who's making mi ponder so much..?I woudnt tink 4 nth if ther;s no happening in my life...I've been thr this stage too..I've hurt my close frens b4 too..n i had promised them nt to repeat the history again..i wouldnt wana to hurt them agaun..i rather i 'm the one being hurt..afterall..i've been hurt upteen times...it doesnt matter animore..isint it????

You rather ask about my updates thr her..than asking mi personali..so..shd i b sad or hapi 4it?You dun understand how i feel n what i wan..though u claim u do..and reassuring mi everytime we tok..I'm lost at times..ur mood just changed lyk how the clouds shift with the wind..it's fast..it's slow.. n i've to change the tune according to it..it's tiring and 2 some i'm finding things for mi self to fan n being foolish at the same time..y dun i tune to the ppl who lyk mi rite?I jst cant cheat my feelings again and hurt anione further..u claim that u doesnt wan mi to wori about u..bt by nt speaking out ur true feelings...u r adding on to my problems..I noe u mean well bt i hope u cud change..I just have no courage to sae tis to u..knowing u b sad to c mi depressed..Juz hope that u will c this when u switch on ur com..

~Reassurance is a confirmation frm u..bt how much does it realli weighs??~

13:41
Time for ENGDRAW...tata~