nEw Com!

thx to my DarLing Terence and his frend SAmuel man...if nt i wont be able to type this entry in the comfort of my home manx...
lolx..new com..so shioke..gotta upgrade the loser 56k dialup soon sia..no pt buying such a high ram and nt making full use of it rite? nw left onli my scanner and printer that cant seem to operate though it;s detected..print out waderver stuff..the paper will be blank no matter wad..duno wads the prob man..

wee~..you guys wudnt noe how hapi and exctited i was a hr ago man...fixing and connecting the last part of the com with my bare hand..unlyk that loser bro of mine..noe onli to kbkb...

sian sian sian..holidae start le..seem lyk is nth bt trg and working...bt tis time rd i tink i gt more life..ahha coze i m organinsing lots of gathering b4 those boys frends of mine b4 Mens..it's so fun and great to be able to meet up with all those old mates..

saw Shan todae..oh man..he's still so goregous can?!!oh man..i cant help to melt in his eyes sia..still 4eva so brudder to mi..love him lots sia..!!after so long of nt contacting mi..then i realised coze he dun have my new no..god bring the fate back again..bt letting mi c him at store todae..i m so HaPpi~~~~!!

after going to the hospital again to visit a frend's dad...the message to love and care for the loved ones ard me blink up again..i seem to neglect alot about my family these daes..lots of tings happened..n i choose to escape and lived in denial..you can sae that i m a coward to leave the problem and not solve it...bt the fact is that i hav no courage to face the truth that's in front of mi..though i wan my freedom and so on..bt still in the bottom of mi..i dun wish to move out and stay alone..cud you imagine that you come home along with onli the walls and furniture..?when sometimes though you come hm for the scoldings and naggings..bt still there be times there b green bean soup and dessert in the pot for you?haix i duno wad i wan..it has been a while that i seen my dad...or rather tok to him...his bdae was on mondae..bt i didnt get to sae a Happi Birthday to him...nt that i wasnt hm...in fact i was hm earli..he didnt came hm till 2am..haix..i dun wish the family to broke up..i realli dont..19 years with the family is short..i wan it to carry on..!

i duno wads wrong with mi..my temper getting frm bad to worst..damn damn bad...some sae i just nid to wait till the tide goes dwn n i be fine...bt i realli hate the way i'm nw..for the slightest ting...i'll just flare up...it's so blodi hard to control..i feel so xin ku..i dun wish the ppl ard mi to suffer..and i dun wan anione to leave mi coze of these...haix.i duno...

saw him on sundae..when the whole grp of the guys frm SKG came dwn to store to have a drink..he was with them coze b4 that was Mervyn's earli bdae celebration...alrite..we tok..we exchanged glances...my face was damn red as according to my partners..my leg was weak..my hands was cold...oh man..y am i feeling this..if you sae that i still carri the feelings for him..issit realli the case?i feel more hatred than love after much thots...i just cant stop to compete my life status with him...i'm competitive i noe..n i m veri veri competitive..bt i just wana prove to him i beta nw!!..argh..y let mi c him again?y let mi tok to him again...was waad Chongye sae true?that he feel guilty / scared..? i wana noe the answers to my questions all these years..i realli wana noe..i m sick and tired of guessing...i feel lyk questioning him... i noe some is irritated bout my tinge about him...wen lar..angela lar..bt seriously..i just cant seem to erase off the haunt...haix...

alrite..nite time le..cannot so emo...if not tml eyes sure puffy de..going to watch VCD le...take care peeps~