BrEak..

1wk gone frm SIP officially when the clock ticked off at 1pm...HoORraY
Went dwn 4 freshies trg to c how the seniors gers are getting on in teaching them..
i mst admit that i was rather nervous sia..duno y...no confidence perhaps..coze i dreamt that tings will nt b as planned..tings will be bad..and as expected..it was wad i guessed..
sharks~
y issit that i owas have to rely on myself and no one bt myself sometimes..
i just hate that stage that no one can save mi..can help mi..
the moment i reach pool, i was bomb with wadever that can be bombed frm the senior guys about the freshies training and my senior gers..
haix..
i 1 ger VS 3guys..u tell mi how to win..
no one can help mi..neither i tink my senior gers will dare to even speak up if they were there..
y issit that it owas mi that have to get all the nagging and scolding when the others r nt there?
i'm a human so r the rest..
once again i cant help it..i cried again..
i'm nt sad or wad..just feeling damn vexed..
y issit that ppl just duno how to treat each other with respect and dinity..
n simpl just chose the way of taking each other for granted..nt even bothered to tink abut the ppl's feelings when they tok or do any actions..
though i may be the captain,i'm nt elected to be a maid for the team..i have a life..so does all the other players have it too..bt y isst that all leaders have to b treated lyk some philipine mariam?
mst c ppl de face ar..mst listen to ppl make noise about us..and also to the extend of INSULTING us..thats so incorrigible...
i'm owas open to u all the feedback and feelings, bt mst u all no-brainers tok in such an attitude that u all duno wads returning to the roots?
dun they understand simple shit some as RESPECT?
if u wan respect frm mi, u jolly well gain that resepct frm mi..if nt i dun c ani pt that i shd respect u as my player.
if u tink that u r fitter to b in my position, i m more than happy to gif up my place for u to have fun in..
if u tink u can do a beta job at cordinating with other teams or other ppl..i will be glad to pass the baton away..
i have enuff..frm ren-ing all these while..gona thrash tings out on tues..
u tink i lk my sip meh..
those who noe mi shd noe i hate it to core..
bt lk i told myself and remind myself consistently..its all about determination and perservance...and not forgetting support frm various parties..my family..my team..my grp mates..and him...
it's onli left with 2 more wks..and i can go back and do wad i wana do le..
2more wks is all it takes for mi to end all my suffering..
and i'm onli asking for 2wks of help more frm others..
is that v.hard to plea for?
if even this 2 more i also mst go full force on team matters, by the time end of 2 wks, i be flat lyk puddle of water being stepped on the floor..i b dead by then in short..
i just dun understand the independence that we can achieve..that we can possese..that we can uphold..y issit that we have to owas rely on others to help when we have to ability to do the tings that we can?
tink thr this, cant the matter b solved if the external party is nt inolved ma?
if the answer is a definite NO..then i nth to sae..
bt if we believe in that there's nth un-achievable, together as a team..i dun c ani prob we cant do it..with one another's support and motivation...
Wads a team?U ask urself that..
remember wad i said,
" There's no "I" in the word "TEAM". "
If u tink there is, then pls let mi c how well u can play as an individual in the game..
1 VS 5 ..i shall wait and c how well u can perform.. i will definitely sae Good Luck to u..

i believe in karma..
Bear in mind tis,
Wad comes around goes around..
If this is the way u treat ur seniors / team-mates or wadeva lyk this nw..
When its ur era, u beta watch out..