SwAY MTh..

injured both my hands..
shit..pain..is lyk i cant even shoot properly nw..
arggh..
i hate that..cary slightl heavy nia..my back will strain..
wth..y mst this happen to mi nw..

i feel so lonely doing all the shit myself..
there's nt much air left for mi to breathe..
i feel that im controlling the air i breathe so as to live as long as i can..
sip is realli killing mi..
everydae 8.30-5.30 non stop collecting data..
no time even to just take a nap and close ur eyes..
come back home still have to key in blodi many data..haix..
i feel so tired..
i cant wait for 1mth to b over..or even the wkend to arrive..
sighx ..there's not much time for mi to slp..
can feel my body breaking dwn..frm the wave frm chinatown to skool every other dae..
and stupid humans just dun understand wad's committment..
all they tink is nth bt results..there's no life in them..
perhaps all these are wad i brought upon myself..
all i nid is just shoulder for mi to open myself to..isit so hard to ask for?
they knew it that i m gona be home late todae..bt did they bother to voice their help?
all they sae was send to us by morning..
is just digging grave for myself isnt it..
300+ data to enter within a nite..
8.30 to report to work
they tink i wad
FARKING CB~

sori for the words..
i just wana let myself out..
i just cant ctrl the stress i m holding..
sae liao they also lyk that..
i just hate insensitive bastards..

::to someone so heartless..::
where the hell r u when i nid u?~
where's the promise u lay?
how much weightage was it in ur words when u left?
was it all just to make mi happi?
im so tired..
i feel so foolish waiting for u day after day..
maibe u tink that words can go unspoken at times..
is all in the mind..our hearts..
bt nt a single word frm u makes mi feel so lost..
i feel so in-secure...
i wonder if im doing the right ting on the right track..i hate the feeling that im battling with my own soul..bt one ting for sure which i cant deny is that i miss u as each day grows by..
all i can sae..i m freaking tired with my life right nw..
perhaps u wun even get to c this post..
even u do..u may nt even noe that it's meant for u..
if nt then u chose to leave in denial..
i hate u..bt at the same time i falling deeper 4 u everydae..
Where r u? R u dead..?
u noe how much support i nid frm u..
bt..time and time..over and over again..u disappoint mi..
am i asking too much?
i dun tink i m ..
wadever..perhaps it's just mi..
i feel so scared that i b pulled dwn by love..
i dun wish to turn into another HIM
he's just not my type...
bt the care he's showing mi..
i beginning to take comparisons..
it's nt being fair to u..
i noe..
bt..for at least let mi noe that u r there for mi when i nid u..
issit too much frm u?too much to asked for?
i m sick of the life.....