:*: SleEpless NiGht :*:

i've tink thr alot of events and details last night about us..
maibe i tink too much..
bt i just cant helped it..
i just feel so letargic in relationship..
i dun fight for my rights some say..
i dun lyk to compete with other girls..
coze i have no confident in myself..or maybe u..
i just dun wan to c the history repeating itself once again..
i have already walk out of the shadows..
i dun wan to walk back into the tunnel again...

alot may sae..how cud it be possible?
thats not the anqi that they noe..the 4eva full of confident loud girl..
yesh this is mi..somemone who duno how to acheive wad i wan in LOVE..
scold mi loser..scold mi stupid..i would agree..
i just duno how to fight for wad i wan..

i can compete in anithing..to acheive wad i desire..to acheive wad i aim..
bt it just not in relationship..

i realli appreciate all those that stood by mi the whole of last nite...
milo...tianfeng..evon..leonard..eunice..philbert...
screwing lots of tings into mi..
some wana mi to wake up..
some ask mi to wait..
some even scold her BITCH..
u guys cant scold her..u guys duno her..u guys just hear my story and read her blog onli..
exactly what i wana do right nw i realli duno...
i m at loss..
i realli felt handicapped..
i duno wad to do..
shd i just email him for an answer directly..or shd i just wait for another mth since i've already waited so long..
i duno y i let my heart take over mi so badly this time..
have i fallen too deep to withdraw myself totally..
i have already lost the game already...have i?
i guess so..
coze i duno wad i wan to do..i dun have any confidence and faith in the relationship animore..
is not that i dun love u..
none of us is at fault..
put it official terms..we are not obliged to do anithing yet..
i just ...

haix..
enuff....
this is wad i've chose...
i wun shed any tears infront of u peeps de...
i'll be strong...