status..issit realli that impt?

evon asked mi this q just nw..n i pondered for that moment..
is having the status more impt than my happiness?
wad if god is fair..and he replace it with the current smile on my face?

i cant be bothered animore..
i just wan things to go on smoothly as it is nw..
i m happy with wads going on..
i m glad that tings alwasy work out after our quarrl..
shd i expect a little more?
y am i owas nt being contented?

2more days to xmas..
which means 2more days to SRRR..
apparently the xmas party b4 that day seem to occupy me more than anithing..
i cant wait for the day..
i just dun wish to go thr another yr of teary xmas..
last yr was gd..bt nt gd enuff..
this year pls be a beta one..

luck on our side for SRRR..
bt how far can the luck bring us to?
i hope that my girls can do it once more..
bt seems that school is occupying our mind...

surfing thru friendster..
"new testimonia" for him..
clicked on his name..
and it was a testimonia from her..
her name nv fail to remind mi of the past...
i m comparing me between her once again..

hmm..paranoid me..
in-security?
sighx..
i duno..
i feel sad once again..
secretly crying..
i know he wun be visting my blog..since i 've nt update it for long..

issit really as what he said?
nth and nth more than friends?

i m realli falling hard this time...just lyk 2yrs ago..
graduating soon in feb..
going to brisbane and gold coast with him and friends..
i wish for a beta yr...coze this yr is ending soon in a few days time...

my entry is boring..
i know that..
it owas revolves ard him..

if u were to read this post..i just want to say that i still love u...